I’ve wrecked my train

In the years of March 2011 – January 2017 I ate a total of 2 doughnuts.  I ate 2 doughnuts this past Friday. I ate 2 doughnuts on Thursday. I ate 2 doughnuts and a bear claw on Wednesday.  I’ve eaten doughnuts all darn year.  Every time I ate one I told myself not to eat it, but I did it anyway.  I didn’t take myself seriously when I said not to.  You see, food is my drug of choice. Doughnuts is a symbol of my struggle.  I push back against the words “food addiction”.  However, yes, I am a food addict.   Foods with the combo of sugar, fat and flour are my drugs.   There is no such thing as “moderation” when it comes to drugs so why do we try to fool ourselves into thinking we can let the food that doesn’t serve us well into our lives.

You see, I had it under control.  I lulled myself into thinking I could let up off the brake and give it a little gas.  I do see that some difficult, stressful life situations pulled me back and I allowed it. Oh.. it was slow.   A little more gas here and there until BAM! I’ve wrecked my train.

I do see things that occurred in my young life from about the age of 4 through my teens that started me on the path of an unhealthy relationship with food.  If I allow myself to peel back the curtain and take a look, I know. It isn’t easy to look, but it’s important to do so.  It is also important not to allow those things to control you and your relationship with food for your entire life.  We do have the power to choose and take control. However, often we must take an unvarnished look at the whys, own up to the reality and choose to move forward with some positive action. We cannot stay in “victim mode”.  To do so relinquishes too much power.

So here I am a few days shy of age 54 and I’m finding myself fighting the same battle – again.  I’m armed with lots of education, history and knowledge of what I need to do, what I must do, what I have successfully done in the past.  Now I must implement it.  Is it easy?  Heck no. Is it possible?  Heck yes.  Is it difficult in terms of complexity?  No. Does it require effort to consistently execute?  Of course.   Worth it?  Oh yes.  Giving up because I wrecked my train?  Oh No!  Blaming anyone or anything else but myself? Nope.  Victim mode is not engaged.  Am I beautiful, smart and worthy of love just the way I am?  Of course.  Blinders on to being fatter than I want and need to be and needing to course correct?  No way.

Are your blinders on?

If you need support, guidance and professional assistance then GET IT.

Stay Healthy. Be STRONG.  Get After It.

 

Congrats! You are a Chicken

Congrats! You are a Chicken.

What? But I want to be an Eagle! What do you mean I’m a chicken?

You are a Fabulous chicken! Isn’t that what you were going after?

No. No! I want to be an Eagle, I’ve been working at being an Eagle.

Do you see what just happened here? It is like what my mother and I’m sure generations of mothers and grandmothers have repeated through the years: “You are the company you keep”.   If you want to be an Eagle then you need to surround yourself with Eagles and model your habits and behaviors to those that the Eagles have.  If you want to be an Eagle, but hang out with a bunch of chickens then you are pretty much setting yourself up for failure as far as being an Eagle. Before you get all riled up “But Jen! nothing wrong with a chicken – chickens are pretty darn groovy”.  Hey! You got it, I know it – chickens are pretty darn awesome sauce, but not if you want to be an Eagle. Get what I’m saying?

If you have goals that you want to accomplish, then you need to be sure you are setting yourself up for success.   That means you will be arming yourself with the right tools, surrounding yourself with like-minded individuals, taking yourself out of your comfort zone, will be making some changes and you need to be prepared to be challenged. Change isn’t easy and it is almost always uncomfortable.  If we want to make changes, yet wrap a warm blanket of the same-same around ourselves then what do we end up with?  We end up wanting and saying we want to be an Eagle, but we are not doing what we need to do to become an Eagle. We are still hanging out with chickens because we know the chickens, we know how to be a chicken, the chickens tell us “there there it’s OK you deserve to give yourself a break, you deserve it, tomorrow is another day, you don’t really want to be an Eagle anyway”. Pat pat, soothe soothe. This goes on tomorrow and the next day, the next month, the next year.  You are beating yourself up, bemoaning “ohhh I want to be an Eagle, why can’t I be an Eagle?  I work so hard, I just must not be cut out to be an Eagle”.  The chickens are still soothing you, commiserating with you, telling you what you want to hear.  The Eagles?  They are like – hey chick! If you want to be an Eagle come on over here with us and let us show you how it’s done.

We Become What We Want to Be by Consistently Being What We Want to Become Each Day

If you have goals you want to accomplish, arm yourself with the proper tools to accomplish those goals.  Surround yourself with like-minded individuals who walk the walk, talk the talk and have the behaviors and habits that make them what it is that makes you want to be like them.  Be willing to surround yourself with individuals who will tell you what you need to hear, not want you want to hear. Surround yourself with those who will push you and challenge you and support you in the changes that you are seeking to make and will hold you accountable to yourself.  It will likely be uncomfortable, but if you want it – Get After It!

Toss off that comfy blanket – you have some soaring to do.